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Name: Saad Dardai
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Birthday: 8/31/1987
Gender: Male
Interests: relationships, friendships, games, movies, music, the same stuff.
i like to be happy.
Expertise: Apparently i am good at being told to listen to what semo tells me to write.
he says i am a guitarist.
a writer
a goof driend
and a humorous dude
so i guess
uh
i am hungry.
I am an expert at eating.
yep.
And sleeping and procrastinating.
Message: message me
AIM:  ThatsMyDesiredSn
MSN: nope sorry
ICQ:  nada
Yahoo:  I don't use that
Jabber: What the hell is a Jabber?
Member Since:
12/17/2004
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| This being a place for my thoughts, recently I was thinking about how
closed up the people in the world seem to be. I think it is partly due
to the fact that we have somehow overused certain important words or
concepts to the extent that these have lost their shine, their meaning,
their significance has been watered down. For example, Love, sometimes
we use this word so frequently, it just loses the feeling if you hear
it so much. Also, smaller things such as asking a person, how are you?
That has become common courtesy, but you know what? That sucks! Common
courtesy means nothing to people, it only keeps the masks we wear in
public on. Rarely anyone cares, we just ask out of habit moreso it
seems. Now when people like myself want to ask this question to
someone, "How are you?" because I am genuinely interested in the
welfare of who I am asking, in terms of their mental/emotional, and
physical conditions, my question is simply answered as vaguely as
possibly, but answered out of common courtesy. COMMON COURTESY! I
understand that it is important to have good manners and common
courtesy to live civilized, but why does everything have to be out of
comon courtesy nowadays? Will someday, love just be out of common
courtesy? I mean people don't even get married for love anymore
necessarily. Whats wrong with us these days? Am I living in the past?
Was the past ever like this? Honestly, I personally love to connect
with people because it teaches me more about myself and my life and who
I like to be around, what kind of person I am. But how does it work? It
doesn't anymore, even those who are outgoing enough to make more
conversation than small talk in public, are still very closed up out of
public. Why is that? I hate small talk! it is just another way to pass
time in the public lives of COMMON COURTESY, it serves no well-defined
purpose unless if someone is using it to analyze a person. Even then,
analyzing someone and using only a limited number of encounters to sort
of label a person, it only breeds ignorance. People can change, and
always are changing right under our noses. There is Nothing wrong with
trying learn about eachother. I think people want to care for one
another, but have trouble leaping into a new friendship because they
are afraid that they will eventually get hurt before or after the
friendship begins. The fact is, friends do come and go, but as you go
through all those friends who seem have a limit to their bond with you,
you will eventually come across those rare individuals who you may
actual spend your lives with. Isn't that worth finding, going through
all these friends, in order to find genuine people who make life worth
living in? Sure it doesn't sound like we can be guaranteed to find
them, but It doesn't mean we aren't, life is about faith, balance, and
mind, heart, and effort. So if anyone is reading this, then you know
how I feel about small talk. I think it is useless, If I ask How are
you? I honestly try to mean it and hope you will atleast answer it out
of more than habit or common courtesy.
I will try to do that too.
Ostensibly,
Saad | | |
| I've come to the Fruition (yep! im learning new words) that even though
I think I don't have what I want, I am usually just having problem
adjusting to to change. So I wrote this poem as advice to all.
"Change" By Saad Dardai
You can't live life without change
it's inevitable....
learn to adapt and rearrange
To what is normal and what is strange
it is hard...
we can, we can't, Control is what we make of it
because the times are always changing...
be grateful for everything, even what you don't get.
and remember how to remember the memories...
They can rain on you like a storm
or shine on you like the sun.
How you remember it, is how you are remembered, in the long run.
and all the time you waste in the rain
is another minute you lose..
in this war against Change... | | |
| So I have no idea why or what is going on but, last monday i was sick
and then i got better at the end of the week but then all of sudden ive
had this strange dry cough every 5 mins or less for the past week and
half and now it feels like i have asthma all over again, and so im
using the inhaler too but thats hardly helping. I hate this cough.
argh! and i also wish i could have done something with ppl today but
nobody was available when i was. and also I forgot who to call or just
didnt know what to do, ugh thats not the best friday ive had but on the
positive note, ive gotten way better at my guitar playing a lot more
complicated things and faster and like basically id be able to impress
people who dont play guitar or havent seen me play be for. yay! playing
guitar in front of people is hard for me because I get uncontrollably
nervous for no reason and i start to shake and that makes it harder to
play, but ive gotten better at that too, and i wanna play in front of
people and be praised for it. what? its a guilty pleasure of mine. I
admit it. | | |
| One of the tragedies that come with how cultures and the world is changing, is that the definition of love is truly becoming a thing of the past.. maybe.
Many things I have seen or thought have brought me upto this entry today.
Sometimes when I am bored I play on yahoo pool, and it is almost hard
not to notice in the chatrooms how there are groups of perverted guys
and horny girls and bots filled with people trying to get hooked up or
something.
At first I thought it was just plain weird and
stupid. It is stupid, but not weird, because the truth is everyone now
a days is just insecure and trying to fight loneliness with lust. People now a days, even myself of course, don't fall in love with others, we simply fall in lust with someone. I
have a crush, why? because hormones rage around this certain person,
but its a combination of me being lonely and my lustful eyes see an oppourtunity to feel a little more secure.
I
truly think love is more than that, it is more like finding someone and
being with them even if they can't fulfill all your insecurities, yet
to promise to try with their significant other until it works. See I
think that makes more sense, basically, I am saying 'true' love is
driven by passion to be with eachother and nobody else.
I am really jealous of those who are passionate about each other.
basically
my definition of love makes it sound like a stupid concept, especially
if the meaning of life is based on survival to find and fulfill a
certain purpose (but thats another thought).
Either way, to me, Love
is a stupid concept, which is why we do stupid things when we are
actually in love, but despite it being stupid, we need it.
emotions, determination, inspiration,
all of these are difficult weapons to use and obstacles that we need to
go through in life to fulfill some purpose, and it seems like the only
thing that can provide the passion or energy to accomplish things, is
love.
of course this sounds cheesy, but this is what I think is true.
Anybody care to share some input? | | |
| So I haven't updated this for a good deal of time.
I felt like I only really started using xanga was because of one good friend of mine
who only uses this.
I dunno. What should I update about ?
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